I’ve not been an autistic person who has struggled with food aversions. . For this I’m grateful. . There are, however, . Particular foods I won’t eat because it means I’ll have to touch them. . Citrus fruits are the worst. . The horrible juice. . On my skin it makes me feel out of control. . Makes me want to gag. . I can feel my fingerprints on my fingers and the lines on my hands as though they’re carvings in wood when citrus juice spills onto my hands. . Dishwashing detergent is the same. . And watermelon. . Watermelon is like working my way through fragile cheap foam mattress that juice pours out from. . When I was pregnant with one of my girls, Much to my disgust, I developed a craving for oranges. . Oh the struggle. . I would stand, . Leaning over the sink. . I’d eat the fruit over the sink so the juice would run into the sink . And so I could wash my hands each time it got into my hands. . But nothing had ever tasted so fresh and delightful in all of my life. . It was the most repulsive, disgusting and delicious experience ever. . Parenting with tactile defensiveness around certain textures is difficult. . My children love citrus fruits and watermelon. . If I can, I wait for my husband to prepare those foods. . But that’s not always possible. . I wish people knew the impact of something that sounds so trivially small. . Out of control. . Anxious. . Angry. . Out of control. . That’s how I feel when faced with preparing foods with an abundance of liquid. . And there’s an entire process to overcome it. . I have to wash my hands thoroughly with soap and I struggle with soap as well. . I then have to pretend it’s not happening and go to a happy place while I dry my hands thoroughly. . I normally do this with my eyes closed. . I then have to moisturise. . And quickly engage in another activity to distract myself. . 🍋🍉 . Ugh to wet things.