I've already failed

I’m currently working on an assessment for my psych degree at uni. . I’ve already failed. . It was due on the 19th and today is the 27th. . This is life as a PDAer. . The accommodations offered to me are a three day extension. . More pressure. . I’ve done some crying, I’ve been angry, I’ve slept, I’ve had a migraine, I’ve felt nauseous, I’ve been extremely anxious. . This is what it’s like to be disabled by society’s expectations of me to follow neuronormative standards. . Try as I might, I cannot. . I want so bad to. . So bad. . I can’t trick my brain or shut down my threat response. . So, I’m going to finish the assessment anyway. . I’m up to date with all other work. . I’m scoring distinctions in my class work. . But that looming demand of a deadline for assessments is disabling and I am powerless against it. . This is PDA. . I’ll finish the assessment and submit it, even though I have failed already. . Because my determination to pave a different way, to be seen, to be heard, to be believed is more important than any grade in postgrad studies. . Please, believe your PDAer child when they say they can’t. . . . Kristy Forbes inTune Pathways